SCANDAL BETWEEN ROSE AND CPE (part 1)

Let's begin with my recollection. That is the gloomiest day in my life. I took a ride straight to FIC for the new year party and cheer. As it's said that luck and unluck limit is so delicate. Considering to meet K.N a good opportunity in my life, i felt happy and wistful the most. At that time, the effort to articulate every long words that she pronounced overflowed my mind. it seemed that there was nothing to come between our minds' link. Well, you might think what kind of human being i am. I'm not lessbian. Please stop your thinking. Go on reading now.

We've been talking much of CPE. Well, i was so impressed with her talent. Day by day, spend only some hour to learn while it takes me one full month to learn as hard as possible. i wonder why god is unfair to me, why i had'nt grown up earlier, why my parents didn't let me go my own way sooner. But at least now, i'm half free of their way. Sometimes, i feel that their duty is to lead me in the right way straight to God. Doing nothing wrong, or we have to say that daren't doing anything, and keep everything under safe condition. i was so timid and vain as what my father taught me or make a clear example as i see now.

Fortunately, God didn't allow me to go on that wrong way. He left me another way by consulting me rough path with waiting challenges. But, i'm not afraid at all. Sooner or later, we would die, why not live meaningfully.

Yeap. CPE is the right choice for me now after the realization that there is no way to reach the success if you can't stabilize your mind. Communication with others in the world is the way you picutre the surrounding environment which is unreachable. I had a long love story with CPE. i should love it, because i have to look it through at any point. However, it's said that you would bet bored whenever the temptation towards other hobbies outnumbers your own love. Everyday, i touched CPE, with tough response or indifferent expression i swear it would react otherwise.

always, i'm whsipering to be patient with it. Still, i can't afford the distractions during this time. Keep yahoo invisible is the best way for me. Giving up the chance to get holiday with him also my final decision. Quitting job is another result.

(To be continued)